I say kind of, because I've spent the week telecommuting, working virtual, being remote, whatever you'd like to call it. I feel lucky that I have the flexibility in my job to do that. I'd say that I have an awesome, understanding boss, but while I was out on medical leave she abandoned me for another position. So now she's just a good friend. :) I got the news that she was leaving at a really bad time in my recovery (emotionally) so I spent the whole day crying about it. I look back now and blame that on the drugs and the after-effects of the anesthesia. I've read on the internets and from fellow bloggers that it can really mess with your emotions those first couple of weeks, and that is NO lie.
But, the rest of my team has been really understanding of my situation and I am grateful for that! I went back to work on Monday morning, and as soon as I logged in online on my work laptop, I was flooded with IM messages from my team mates welcoming me back and sending good words of encouragement, wanting to catch up, and just wanting to chat with their co-worker that has been missing for a month. It felt so good to here from them again. The majority of my team is based in Phoenix (I'm in Salt Lake City) so it's kind of a bummer that I won't be able to see their faces when I am able to return to the office.
I hope that it's soon. I've been trying to take every opportunity to get out of the house when I can, even if it's just a car ride with the husband to fill up gas in the car. I start to have anxiety attacks about what awaits me when I do return to the office. I've never thought about how handicapped accessible the building is and how well my scooter will work. Can I get to my desk and into my office chair without assistance? How am I going to elevate my foot during the day? It gets very painful, swollen and turns purple if it hangs down like a normal foot. How am I going to stay comfortable for 8 hours a day? Are both my scooter and I able to fit inside conference rooms for meetings? How do I stay comfortable with minimal pain when I have long meetings? Will my scooter fit in the bathroom? Is it going to be a pain using the toilet? What if someone is in the handicapped stall when I need to go? I'll just have to sit and wait around? How do I carry stuff from the lunch room, like a hot cup of coffee or bowl of soup? Are my co-workers going to get sick of me asking for help with normal, everyday tasks that people should be able to do on their own? I guess I'll figure that out as I make the eventual trip into the office. It may not be as bad as my anxiety is making it out to be.
I really am trying to stay positive otherwise. I've been making it down to my basement gym every other day to activate my beastmode and bust out some workouts. But, I've found myself getting kind of bored with my exercises. All I can really do is upperbody and core. I tried to do some knee squats, and my right quad is SOOOO weak! Nate told me that my right leg is looking rather wimpy. I think it is too. It's hard to absorb because right before Spartan, I was deadlifting/squatting 100+ lbs. I'm trying to get creative with my workouts and keep it interesting, but I haven't quite figured out how to do cardio with my home gym.
Bleh.
I am hoping that once my cast comes off, I'll be free to do a little bit more, like biking or swimming!
All in all, going back to work was a good thing. I'm absolutely swamped with work and playing catch up, so it keeps my mind occupied, and off this whole pity-party-I-only-have-one-leg scenario that plays over and over in my head.
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